Peace upon you all :)
I'm sad,,, simply I ain't happy, the problem is I'm not able to change that since a while
YES I go out, laugh, tell jokes and everything,, but this has never been a real scale for happiness,,,,,,,
these laughs are like pain killers, they make me comforted for a while,, then when their effect goes away, the pain grows stronger
it's like you have a broken leg and you take a pain killer for it then you run as you can feel no pain, when the effect of the pain killer goes away your leg will kill you out of pain,
it's just something I can't fix, nothing is in my hand really
it's just getting bigger everyday that I can't bear any more
I just don't know the cause I can see only the effect, and that's the problem
you can't treat what you don't know how did it go wrong......